hey dad today was the first christmas without you and it really sucked but not as bad i expected it to be but it still sucked but it was a pretty good day we got alot of stuff though i got 150 and something dollars and two huddies a red southpole one and a orange tennessee onei got some socks and shirts we got a PS2 and a nintendo wii its so awsome we wish you could be here to enjoy the stuff with us but we know your in our hearts even though your not here in person. We went to your moms this morning and ate breakfast it was good but you couldnt enjoy it but i know you are enjoying your new life in heaven but i feel like you are here with me but i cant see you it aint the same without you here enjoying the stuff we got for christmas but you enjoy your life in heaven as long as you are happy up there we are happy for you but not ourselves i just feel like crying myself to sleep right now but im trying as hard as i can not to but its just to hard on me right now.Mommy got her a new job and lifes going a little better now for me but it still sucks without you here but thats all i got to say right now but always remember daddy i love you and merry christmas dad i will try to right back on new years but i love you dad bye