Here I sit alone on New years eve, the boys are at the yearly all night skate party for teens on New years eve. I miss you so much , and I feel so alone in thid world without you. I'm scared, but try to put up a good front. I need you here so bad to hold me and tell me everythings gonna be OK. Sorry I couldn't write on Christmas, things were so hectic, I had surgery and then come down with a bad stomache virus and could barely drag myself around at Christmas. But I gathered the strenght and we went to your Mom and Dads, Christmas morning just like always, I don't want their traditons to change and I don't want them to grow to far apart from your family. Besides they said they really looked forward to going to your mom's for some good ol biscuits and gravy LOL. I miss you Honey, so very much. Wat am I going to do without you? I love and need you so much.