Another Christmas without you here, God it's so hard to believe. The scars are still so fresh and hurt so bad. Maybe my heart will never mend But I'm glad for all the good times Cause you've brought me so much sunshine And love was the best it's ever been I wouldn't have missed it for the world Wouldn't have missed loving you You made my whole life worth while, for a while. I wouldn't trade one memory Cause you mean too much to me And Even though I lost you I wouldn't have missed it for the world They say that all good things must end Loves comes and goes just like the wind You've got your dreams to follow But if I had the chance tomorrow You know I'd do it all again. I'd give anything for one more minute with you. The boys are growing so fast and are quite a handful, sometimes I question my ability to do this on my on, Stacy they need you now more than ever, your missing their teen years and the rest yet to come. God how I wish you were here to help me raise them to become the men we always hoped they'd be. Jordan will be 15 next week and he needs you here to teach him to drive, work on cars and give him advice about girls, things that I can't do. Cody's not far behind. I'm trying the best I can. They still miss you so much and hurt so bad. I feel so helpless at times, all I want is to bring you back and ease their pain. But I still can't deal with my own pain and it's getting the best of me, I try to be strong for them, but it's just so hard. This house is so lonesome when they are asleep, It reminds me that soon they to will be gone and I'll be here all alone. GOD will this pain ever stop!!!!!!!!!!!! Even though the smiles are few and far between, this one is for you. Merry Christmas Honey. We love and miss you so much. There is a place beside me empty where you should be.