It's been a while I know since I've wrote to you, it is not that I have forgotten you, It is only that life has been so hard lately. I've been working long hours and trying to keep the boys occupied with sports like I know you wanted. I still can't bring myself to move on yet, the boys really need a man in their lives to do things with and teach them things that I can't. But I'm still just not ready to let you go and move on. I take the boys camping and try to do family things with them but it is hard when our family is broken and no other man could ever take your place in our lives. I took them to your old stomping ground this last week end up on Horse Creek. We had a good time just knowing we were where you used to love to go. I felt you there with us, it was a beautiful day and I felt your warmth all around me. 'm probably going on and on It seems I'm doing more of that these days I probably wouldn't be this way I probably wouldn't hurt so bad I never pictured every minute without you in it Oh You left so fast Sometimes I see you standing there Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much God gave me a moment's grace 'Cause if I'd never seen your face I probably wouldn't be this way Mama says that I need to move on, but I'm just not ready yet. You oughta see the way these people look at me When they see me 'round here talking to your stone Everybody thinks I've lost my mind But I just take it day by day Sometimes I feel an angel's touch Sometimes I feel that I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much God gave me a moment's grace 'Cause if I'd never seen your face I probably wouldn't be this way Everybody says I'm crazy Guess I'll have to see. I Love you Always..........