It's after midnight, everyone is asleep, It's my birthday and God knows it is the worst one ever, your not here with me, nothing is the same anymore, and I know it will never be, I just don't know how to keep handling all this pain. I try so hard to be strong, keep my head up, but it is so hard. I still hurt so bad and no one knows it but me. I miss you so badly, people tell me time heals all , but my heart still crys every night. I don't want to go to sleep tonight, cause when I wake I always forget for a moment, then it sinks in again your not here, to wake me with a kiss and telling me "I Love you Happy Birthday Baby" like you always did. I go though the motions, not really here only exsiting from day to day. Please let me know your here with me today like you always have, I need that. I love and miss you, I'll talk to you soon baby.