It seems like it has been forever, I haven't been able to write to you because of the site being down, but I do talk to you every night before I go to bed. The boys' are doing better, they still miss you very much and still cry for you. But we are learning how to cope with being alone, not that we like it, but because we have no choice. I am so lost and alone, I try to keep myself busy, with the new job and all the training all over the state, I push myself to the brink of a breakdown sometimes, so exhausted by the time I get home. But it has been the only thing keeping me sane is to stay as busy as I can. Saturdays are the hardest on all of us, because it is the day you left us and we can't seem to get through this day yet without sheding many tears. Maybe someday............. Love you always Annette