It is a very hard day for us today, especially the boys, One more special day that we can not share with you. Another "first one with out you". I tried to get the boys to go visit your resting place today, but they still don't want to go there. I'm sorry Honey, they are still hurting so much and today is hard on them and they cryed last night knowing what today was going to be and that you were not going to be here. I don't want to force them to visit your grave, it is just to hard on them and me. We all know that it is only your empiy shell lies in that hole in the ground, and that you will continue to live on in our minds and our hearts. I miss you so much. The boys keep me running after work everyday going to ball games - you taught them very well, but trying to be in two places at once sometimes is taking a toll on me, but I have to do the best I can to help make their lives as normal as possible, I just wish that you were here to watch them play, you would be so proud, course you always were, but they get better every day, and are growing up so fast. It just seems like time is racing by in a fog, and in a few years they will be grown and I will be alone, I just don't know how I am going to go on after they are grown.... GOD I miss you ! Happy Fthers day in Heaven sweetheart. We LOVE YOU.