Three weeks ago today, you left us here all alone. No goodbye, not a word as to why. You died peacefully in your sleep, I can only hope that your last dreams were filled with wonderful memories of us. Of you, me and our children. We painfully watched as you took your last breath, the heartache and pain was to much to bear, I remember the screams filling the air. I tried and I tried , but I could not save you, I tried to keep breathing for you till the paramedics made me stop...... the scene plays over and over in my head, and I still can't believe your never coming back. My life feels so empty, my mind confused, my heart is numb, yet the tears keep flowing, and I can't make them stop. How do we go on with out you? Wake me up please and tell me this is all a bad dream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD help me, help me PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!