I took the boys camping the week of the 4th of July, to get away from home and the painful memories of past holidays here with you. You are not here to spoil them with hunderds of dollars in fireworks, to light the big ones for us all to see. Somethings in our lives are having to change, our traditions as a family are now only memories. With out you here it will never be the same. It's so hard to be a mom and dad to two teenage boys that are so much like you in a lot of ways, we all need you so bad. We love you always, death will never end that.